Sleepy Sunday, Self-Doubt, and Why I’m Not Racing…Right Now

be strong in the Lord. more race days will come! trash self-doubt and trust that He has made you strong and beautiful!

I absolutely revel in race day mornings. The excitement, free bananas, cool tees, the people, nerves, energy, the unknown, the run. And yesterday morning in my quiet little town they hosted the White Squirrel 5/10k hosted by Brevard Rotary which I have run a time or two in the past and have enjoyed the races. But I’m not racing this year. Here’s why:

  • as many of you know racing tends to get expensive. So I’ve been very picky and choosey about which distances and which races I’ll be running.
  • There’s that and I’ve run a marathon and a fast 5k all within four weeks of each other.
  •  I’m trying my hardest to focus on the easier runs and strength work.
  • Plus, most elite runners race only a handful of events anyway. There’s a very good reason for that. If you want to give your best at your goal race you must give your body the rest it needs. Not just a day or two either. 
  • I want to be at my peak come marathon day in November. And that means ample rest to be ready to push hard when the time is right. 
  • Racing too often, too much, too long stresses your body and increases risk of injury. 

So what did I do with my Saturday? Well, at 8:00 I met with Jenna at Jenna Leigh Photography ((She is an incredibly talented photographer and I am sooooo freaking lucky to know her. If you’re in Western NC I can not highly recommend her more!!)) for a quick head shot for my Personal Trainer biz, which is a work in progress; check it out HERE so far to see where I am going with it. It’s definitely a work in progress!  We had fun this morning with some quick shots and overdue girl, fitness, mommy chat. Need more of that….

jenna aka best photographer ever

Then right after that I took off on a run to wallow in self pity about not racing clear my mind of a few stresses. I’d be a liar if I told you I totally didn’t run past the race event and whine in jealousy inside my mind a weeeee bit.  I’ve not been feeling my strongest lately mentally. I believe we A-type go getters tend to put too much pressure to be perfect in everything. I’ve come a long ways in growing and becoming okay with relaxing that idea some. But sometimes, every once in a while life just gets to me. Maybe it’s been my current pharmacy job getting me down, or the fact that I’m tirelessly trying to create a personal training biz that seems to be taking too long to lift off, or maybe it’s too much self-doubt. You gotta tell that ish to shut it up. Because ain’t no body got time for that mess. You are stronger than you think. And The Good Lord is even stronger.  Any good biz owner I’m sure will tell you it takes an insane amount of initial ground breaking work and lots of dedicated T-I-M-E to really get the ball rolling. Especially if you’re currently working a full-time job outside of the home. But in the long run it will all be worth it. The long runs always are. 

i don’t always wear makeup when i run but when i do i take a selfie. lol i am no running diva i swear but post photo shoot i wanted to run!


As a fitness professional I am not exempt from feelings of insecurities and today proved that. When trying to pose for the camera I kept hearing those nasty little self-doubt bugs creep in trying to tell me lies. Like your teeth are crooked. Don’t smile. You’re not fit enough yet. Blah blah blah

You know what to tell those bugs: liar liar pants on fire! I may be a work in progress but I am strong and I am beautiful still!!!!

And on a more personal life note the husband and I are celebrating two years of togetherness this weekend! We went on our first date, a hike and ice-cream, two years ago during Memorial Day Weekend. This weekend we celebrated with cruising the town festival eating ridiculous amounts of tasty oh-so-bad-for-you food!

  
So that’s my weekend in a nutshell. I press on. Follow your heart. Never give up and tell those nasty bugs to shut it up! 

I’m working all Sunday then group run Sunday eve! 

What’s on your plate this weekend? How often do you race?

jesssig

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#MotivationalMonday #MarathonMonday Free Oxygen & Running Battlefield.

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So this week in running… I gave myself two rest days instead of one, using one rest day as a XT (cross training) day on the elliptical and the other day for a short 1.4 mile hike. I feel like my body is simply needing the extra rest. Some people are running machines and I am not one of them. For me, it’s so difficult to not play the comparison game. Like why can’t I push harder when someone else can? Why am I not any faster?  Why have these past two weeks been mentally draining and like a running battlefield for me?! I did not hit my weekly mileage goal and here’s why…

No weekly running selfies or Garmin selfies this week. I just ran when I could. I didn’t get my speedwork in. First speedwork run I’ve missed all training season. I did run on the scheduled day I just didn’t push myself into the 800s…Several factors including: 

Late running start

Temps went up 

Windy as all get out

Read: excuse. after. excuse. 

Ugh

I wanted to run an easy six yesterday but I had to work ALL day. On Easter. I know. (So over pharmacy. Working hard everyday towards becoming a full time personal trainer!) So long run on Saturday plus being on my feet all day Sunday I just felt so sore all over especially my feet. So my hubby and I went on a short hike post work. And after all that hydration talk on Friday, I still have felt dehydrated all week. Why?

So where’s the motivational part of this post, miss negative Nancy??

Read Here: St. Jude.

I thought I would share with you all  where some of the money goes when you donate to St. Jude.

One Day of Oxygen: $447

Oxygen is key to keeping the immune system strong. A gift of oxygen can help a young body thrive and help fight cancer at the cellular level.

Child-sized Wheelchairs: $700

These special wheelchairs help children move easily through St. Jude.

Infant Care Supplies for 10 Babies: $50

These supplies help parents and nurses care for babies in treatment and include items like diapers, baby bottles, sippy cups, pacifiers, footies and heel warmers.

Wagon: $70

Wagons can make traveling through the halls of St. Jude easier for parents and more fun for a young child.

Parties to celebrate birthdays, holidays and “coming off chemo”: $75

St. Jude provides parties, decorations, cakes and more to keep spirits high during the holidays and to celebrate special occasions like birthdays and a child’s completion of chemotherapy treatment.

So regardless of how perfect or less than stellar my training goes during this marathon season, I know I’m running for a greater cause. If only 22 people donated just $20 dollars one kid could have one day of oxygen. I have free oxygen everyday. My body doesn’t fail me in health. It may become weary and tired at times…like during marathon training…but it is in good health. 

If you are blessed with free oxygen would you consider giving any amount to these kids? Donate HERE.

Perspective.

So what’s on tap for this week:

Monday: REST

Tuesday: 7 easy w/7 strides + strength training

Wednesday: Mile repeats 8 m w/3 x 1 m + yoga

Thursday: 10 m w/8 @ MP

Friday: 6 easy

Saturday: 16 lsd

Sunday: 6 easy or rest/yoga

Total goal mileage: 53 miles

I’m betting I’ll add another rest day in on Sunday. So that total mileage will be lower, like this past week. But I’m okay with this. Overall I’ve had a pretty solid training season. Rest is a key element in training. And I’ve almost lost sight of this.

I’m so grateful that all the monster long runs are behind me. We begin the slow taper.

T-minus three weeks!

How’s your training going? Doubts? Fears? Excitements? Do you compare yourself to other runners occasionally?

blessed and beautiful running.

jesssig

Tempo Tuesday: FOCUS. Rawr!

How to re-FOCUS:

Forgive yourself
Overcome the self doubt
Count your blessings
Understand your hang ups
Stride on

IMG_2016.JPG This is my game face. Focused. Ready to get my rawr on!
I’m re-focusing my mind today. The past two weeks as far as training has gone, I’ve been mediocre at best. But as I stated in a previous post: I’m only human.
However, it’s time to stop dwelling on the runs I’ve not gotten in and training not accomplished thus far. I’ve given myself the slack needed and now it’s time to focus on what I have accomplished and get after some more. I’m ready to get up, dust it off, and #getafterit. Back on track so to speak. The best way I’ve found to get back on track is:

• Remember why you’re doing what you’re doing. Maybe even write that down.

• Set small, daily achievable goals. Write those down too. Or blog it down. 😉

• Find an accountability partner.

• Think on how you will feel post accomplishment or training session.

• Get after it!

Here’s my goal training week:

Monday: rest – check. Always an easy one to accomplish. 😉

Tuesday: tempo 6 miles – check.

Wednesday: easy 5, yoga class

Thursday: speed work 7 miles total

Friday: strength train/XT

Saturday: easy 5

Sunday: 18 miles

Total mileage: 41 miles

Your turn! How’s your weekly mileage? Hit any “speedbump” in training? Do you allow yourself any slack? How do you refocus?

blessed & beautiful running.