#MotivateMe Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday! It’s Not the Failure. Sometimes It’s the Goal.       

I am not a cookie cutter woman. I am imperfect, flawed, broken beyond repair, damaged, wild, and chaotic. I can be completely unruly and out of line.

But all of this is what makes me beautiful. Or this:

me on Monday.

Yeeeeahh, last week’s #MotivateMe Monday did not work last week. I did blog more than once though…. there’s something.

You know, sometimes we set goals that seem to be bigger than our own briches. Then sometimes we set goals blindly. Like for example, trying to squeeze in a 40 mile week knowing I had a FULL week ahead with visiting the kid at camp, visiting in-laws, long work week, training clients, picking up the kid from camp… With the 6 hour round trip drive to my son’s camp…twice last week, I think aiming for a 40 mile week was a bit unwise. Then, I fell sick Monday. I think I more or less had  some kind of summer cold I caught from my son’s camp. Also, combined with being over worked and stressed to the max trying to be everything. But whatever it was it caused me to lay out on Monday and feel lethargic Tuesday.

To be totally honest with you all, I was beginning to feel depressed. Of all my great plans and goals…I had stupid thoughts like, “You’re not good enough to pull off this personal trainer gig. Who do you think you are? You SUCK at being a wife and mom. Maybe you should just stop trying. Give up. You’re not a real runner. Those runners this weekend are going to kick your BUTT. You’re not fit enough yet. Maybe you should cook more you lousy ‘homemaker’. You’re just a terrible human being with the worst attitude.”

I know. I know…..But that’s part of blogging. Being real with each other. And thank the LORD it was only a crazy temporary mind battle.

But today is a new day! A new month in fact. I had plenty of solid sleep and this morning I sprung out of bed like a fresh daisy:

I feel recharged and refocused. I know my miles haven’t been high and I’m racing a 10k this Saturday. But it will be what it will be. And it will be just fine. Instead of focusing on mileage or times at this point I will focus on making sure I stay sane and healthy. Then beginning on July 20th I will start focusing on mileage again.

Though I felt discouraged due to my lack of running with an upcoming race looming overhead, I know I have been giving every day my all. And then in my little red book I read this:

“Erase from your mind that your preparation must be perfect. Hard work + dedication =a shot at your dreams. Keep believing.” Kara Goucher

Life is inherently imperfect. As long as you know you are giving each and every day your best, then that’s what it takes to be successful. We are all human. We all have busy lives at times and other things in life must take precedence over the sport of running. *gasp* I know it’s a hard pill to swallow but it’s true. Unless you get paid to run, have no job outside of the home (or in home for that matter), have no family or children at home, trying to maintain solid high mileage week after week will become near impossible at times. And that is OKAY. So bottom line:

Set SMART goals.

Refocus when needed.

Practice enjoying the journey.

Keep priorities straight i.e. family.

Get back at your running/fitness goals ASAP.

Meditate, practice yoga, and enjoy hot bubble baths often.

Know you’re not alone in this adventure. We all struggle from time to time.

July goals
  • Race a strong 10k July 4th. Regardless of time. My goal is to race as strong as I am capable.
  • Hit 40 miles by July 20th in prep for marathon training.
  • Remain focused.
  • I will think harder before setting goals.
  • I may or may not read that book I said I would…
  • Have 5 clients by the end of the month and see my current clients succeed!

This week’s line-up:

Monday: sick day

Tuesday: rest/light yoga and stretching

Wednesday: 4 miles w/hill sprints + yoga

Thursday: Easy 5 miles

Friday: Rest/light yoga stretching

Saturday: 10k race!

Sunday: easy 5 miler shakeout run

On another less serious note:
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just another day at the office.

My office outside of the pharmacy. I’ve been typing up plans and notes for clients for two hours now and I need a break! So I blog. Try blogging on the ball. Nice little core workout with proper form. Oh wait…I need to be typing up my own plan now…I almost forgot…. #PersonalTrainerProblems

Have you ever set unreasonable goals for yourself and then felt like a loser? Have you had similar stupid thoughts? How do you get rid of them? How are your summer goals coming along?

blessed and beautiful running.

jesssig

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Sleepy Sunday, Self-Doubt, and Why I’m Not Racing…Right Now

be strong in the Lord. more race days will come! trash self-doubt and trust that He has made you strong and beautiful!

I absolutely revel in race day mornings. The excitement, free bananas, cool tees, the people, nerves, energy, the unknown, the run. And yesterday morning in my quiet little town they hosted the White Squirrel 5/10k hosted by Brevard Rotary which I have run a time or two in the past and have enjoyed the races. But I’m not racing this year. Here’s why:

  • as many of you know racing tends to get expensive. So I’ve been very picky and choosey about which distances and which races I’ll be running.
  • There’s that and I’ve run a marathon and a fast 5k all within four weeks of each other.
  •  I’m trying my hardest to focus on the easier runs and strength work.
  • Plus, most elite runners race only a handful of events anyway. There’s a very good reason for that. If you want to give your best at your goal race you must give your body the rest it needs. Not just a day or two either. 
  • I want to be at my peak come marathon day in November. And that means ample rest to be ready to push hard when the time is right. 
  • Racing too often, too much, too long stresses your body and increases risk of injury. 

So what did I do with my Saturday? Well, at 8:00 I met with Jenna at Jenna Leigh Photography ((She is an incredibly talented photographer and I am sooooo freaking lucky to know her. If you’re in Western NC I can not highly recommend her more!!)) for a quick head shot for my Personal Trainer biz, which is a work in progress; check it out HERE so far to see where I am going with it. It’s definitely a work in progress!  We had fun this morning with some quick shots and overdue girl, fitness, mommy chat. Need more of that….

jenna aka best photographer ever

Then right after that I took off on a run to wallow in self pity about not racing clear my mind of a few stresses. I’d be a liar if I told you I totally didn’t run past the race event and whine in jealousy inside my mind a weeeee bit.  I’ve not been feeling my strongest lately mentally. I believe we A-type go getters tend to put too much pressure to be perfect in everything. I’ve come a long ways in growing and becoming okay with relaxing that idea some. But sometimes, every once in a while life just gets to me. Maybe it’s been my current pharmacy job getting me down, or the fact that I’m tirelessly trying to create a personal training biz that seems to be taking too long to lift off, or maybe it’s too much self-doubt. You gotta tell that ish to shut it up. Because ain’t no body got time for that mess. You are stronger than you think. And The Good Lord is even stronger.  Any good biz owner I’m sure will tell you it takes an insane amount of initial ground breaking work and lots of dedicated T-I-M-E to really get the ball rolling. Especially if you’re currently working a full-time job outside of the home. But in the long run it will all be worth it. The long runs always are. 

i don’t always wear makeup when i run but when i do i take a selfie. lol i am no running diva i swear but post photo shoot i wanted to run!


As a fitness professional I am not exempt from feelings of insecurities and today proved that. When trying to pose for the camera I kept hearing those nasty little self-doubt bugs creep in trying to tell me lies. Like your teeth are crooked. Don’t smile. You’re not fit enough yet. Blah blah blah

You know what to tell those bugs: liar liar pants on fire! I may be a work in progress but I am strong and I am beautiful still!!!!

And on a more personal life note the husband and I are celebrating two years of togetherness this weekend! We went on our first date, a hike and ice-cream, two years ago during Memorial Day Weekend. This weekend we celebrated with cruising the town festival eating ridiculous amounts of tasty oh-so-bad-for-you food!

  
So that’s my weekend in a nutshell. I press on. Follow your heart. Never give up and tell those nasty bugs to shut it up! 

I’m working all Sunday then group run Sunday eve! 

What’s on your plate this weekend? How often do you race?

jesssig

#MarathonMonday Week 12 Trust in the Training

22milerun.jpgHey y’all! I’m working on very, very little sleep today. The kid woke up about 12:45 and got, er, very, very sick all over his carpet floor and bed. So we are sitting at home sanitizing every inch of our home. And I’m praaaaaaaaying that I don’t fall victim to the nasty little tummy bug myself.

I’m marathon training. And my son says he HATES missing PE day!!! (he is his mother’s son) Ain’t nobody got time for dat. Get on with yo bad self buggy boo and get outta here!

I keep worrying (they say worry is a sin. and I shouldn’t worry. but I’m having the hardest time!) that I will have this insanely perfect training cycle only to have something horrible cancel the big race or that I’ll get awfully sick. But let’s pray that all will continue on strong and that my little dude will get better soon. I’ve had him re-hydrating his system with NUUN All-Day hydration. Beats pouring nasty chemicals and sugars in his body! NUUN isn’t only great for running and working out, it’s the best way to stay hydrated daily with necessary electrolytes without the sugars and chemicals so many “sports drinks” offer. So, thank you NUUN for keeping the kid and myself well hydrated and healthy.

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So here we go…

For the past 11 weeks I have been training hard and blogging every Monday about it in #MarathonMonday. Inspired by  #MotivateMe Mondays with Janice at Fitness Cheerleader and Rachel at Running Rachel I decided to take on my own Mondays and remain accountable during my marathon training with YOU. The beauty of #MotivateMe is that it can be motivation for anything health/fitness related. So if you’re not into the marathon thing head over to #MotivateMe Mondays and link-up! I fully believe that linking up with them back in December helped me achieve my base mileage building phase. So if you’re currently training, fixing to begin, or just starting to wet your feet in the fitness area feel free to follow me as I continue on the road towards a BQ in Nashville this April!

I am FIVE weeks away from the big M-day!

For the past 11 weeks my training has been pretty solid. Hitting all key running workouts, enjoying a few easy runs, getting in strength training, and practicing yoga. I feel pretty confident, but not. If you read Sunday’s post then you know we all have a little doubt that likes to creep in every once in a while. I’ve basically been coaching myself with a plan derived from the Runner’s World Big Book of Marathons. I follow the plan near religiously but have been creating my own paces. In the past I have relied on a book of some sort to tell me how fast I should be running my tempos, speed intervals, and long runs. This entire training I’ve  been going solely on feel and what I feel I am capable of. I’m wondering if how I’ve been training myself is good enough… It would be nice to have a coach to tell me to push harder when needed or rest when necessary but I’m trusting in myself to hit all the right paces and recover smart.

Trust myself. That in itself is kinda scary. But if you’re in tune with your body, it will tell you what it needs.

This week is a cut back week, thank you sweet Jesus! I’ve managed three solid weeks of mileage ranging from 51-60 and  my body is ready for a break from the past three monster long runs.

So here’s the goal training plan this week:

Monday: REST/yoga/stretching

Tuesday: 10 miles w/8 @MP

Wednesday: 6 E w/6 strides (NASM CPT exam day!!!!) + upper body strength

Thursday: 9 miles w/4×1 mile intervals

Friday: 7 E + core

Saturday: 14 LDS

Sunday: 8 E + yoga

Total Miles: 54

How my body is feeling: 

Minor fatigue, soreness. But drinking tart cherry juice has been a lifesaver! NO ibu for this gal. Hips are getting more stable with corrective and strength exercises like clamshells, walking lunges, awkward machine...

What I’m thinking:

For the first time during this marathon training cycle I thought to myself, “I am freaking crazy. I’ve lost my mind.” I’ve put my life on hold for a 16 week training plan just so I can try to qualify to try and run Boston. What am I thinking? I’m not. I’m simply following my heart…. and I fully believe there is a reason for this…eye on the prize. Pressing on to encourage the world.

#PressOn

Do you every question your sanity when marathon training? Do you use a coach or self-coached? Have you ever gone through a stellar training season only to have your plans interrupted by illness or a canceled race? Favorite run or workout this week??

blessed and beautiful running.

jesssig

Making a Difference Link-Up with Miles-to-Go

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Good afternoon friends! I’m so excited to be joining Kelly over at Miles-to-Go for her making a difference link-up! This will be a once a month event held on Wednesdays about giving back through running or anything fitness related. I have so many things to blog about when it comes to giving back so of course I was excited when Kelley asked us to join her.

Here’s a few topics you can expect from me in the upcoming months:

1.) SMART Girls volunteer coaching. I dedicate each Wednesday afternoon for about an hour and forty-five minutes or so to running, talking about life skills, and encouraging elementary aged girls. This one is particularly special to my heart.

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2.) Running for the #IRun4 organization. This organization is for those who can not run themselves and you dedicate your running, swimming, biking, or whatever it is you do in their name. I love my #IRun4 buddy more than I can express!

“You can run for me anytime!”  
A simple phrase that sparked a movement.

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3.) Raising money for charitable causes through racing. I’m currently raising money for St. Jude’s Children Hospital as I I train for the Country Music Rock n’ Roll marathon.

4.) Giving back by giving time to other runners who may be new to the sport. Offering your time is definitely a way to give back. It’s not always monetary or a huge event.

For today I’ll leave this as an introductory post for the link-up and dive into more detail on topic number one above next month. I have too much to say to squeeze in on one post.

I will say that running can be a solo sport for sure, but within the running community there is a strong sense of camaraderie that has the power to change the lives of many. Friendships developed, charities supported, and endless bouts of support. Running in a way, can be the least selfish thing you can do.

If giving back is your thing feel free to add your link below to join in on the conversation.

Do you give back to the running community? How? 

blessed and beautiful running.

jesssig

Thoughts For Thursday. Doubt and Disappointment.

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I don’t even know where to begin. I can begin with how I feel I suppose.
I’m disappointed. Frustrated and feeling less than. I’m doubting my ability. My thoughts. My motives.

So last March I signed up for the NASM certified personal trainer course and I got derailed due to throwing my entire life into wedding planning.

I have this problem.

I dive in 100% when I begin a project and neglect the other aspects of life. I hate to do anything halfhearted. Wedding became priority and my initial thoughts of doing it all was a mistake. I try to do too much I too little time.

What doesn’t challenge us doesn’t change us. Without change we remain stagnant … Or worse.

Lesson learned.

Anyway, fast forward to present, I’m happily married and ready to dive in 100% into NASM CPT.
I study hard.
Call to schedule exam.
Problem: “I’m sorry ma’am but your account expired in September and there is now a $199.00 fee to extend your exam.”

Ok, for some this may be pocket change but to me it’s devastating.

They unfortunately don’t accept payment plans on this fee. I’ve been making payments ALL year for this so I assumed I couldn’t even take the exam until I had paid in full anyway. However, I apparently only had 180 days to take the exam regardless if I was paid in full or not.

So.

It makes me question myself.
Am I even good enough? Should I keep trying? Why is there never enough time or money? Why can’t I manage my time and money better?
Maybe I just need to stick to my regular pharmacy job.

Then I remembered: I’m a marathon runner. C’mon chick. You GOT THIS.

I’ve examined why I want this certificate. And I do. There’s no doubt. I’m just temporarily derailed. I can’t just try harder. I need to DO HARDER. So regardless of this I will continue on in my pursuit one way or another. I want to encourage others to live full, fit, and happy lives.
Where there’s a will there’s a way.

How do you deal with setbacks and derailments?

Blessed and Beautiful Running.