Warning. This ISN’T Your Typical Perky Post. 

I don’t want you all to be under any illusion thinking I am super woman and that I’m totally rocking out life every day. There are days when I feel as though I am. But much of the time I struggle. 

Today I’m staying home feeling extremely down, way under the weather (congested and not hungry. You KNOW something’s wrong when my appetite has dissapated), and fatigued. 

(Thank the Lord it’s cut back week…)

I even chose the more conservative route in marathon training knocking my 6 days of running down to 5. 

But, that’s not what I’m talking about here and now. Just a few days ago I mentioned how harmful chronic stress, whether it’s GOOD or bad, to your physical body resulting in many unfavorable symptoms… Much like what I’m experiencing today. 

I WANT to be able to “do-it-all”. However, in a previous post I know I’ve said it, 

You can do many great things, but not EVERY single great thing.

So as a personal trainer how in the world did I allow myself to get here? I mean, I practically PREACH on balance, stability, moderation, and wellness. 

I want you all to know, I NEED you all to know that I, myself, am too incredibly human and susceptible to failure and crashing and burning. Sometimes more often than I’d like to admit. 

So here’s the truth:

I wake up every morning with coffee and a Bible devotion…then this happens:

I’ve yelled at my husband over more stupid crap than I’d like to honestly disclose. 

I’ve fallen prey to the “poor me” attitude. 

I’ve cried like a starving Ethiopian baby. 

I’ve slammed too many doors out of sheer uncalled for anger. 

I’ve struggled to sleep soundly. 

I’ve had to call out of work due to illness. Twice this summer. 

Obviously I’m WAAAAY out of balance somewhere and it has me looking like an insane hypocrite. 

I enjoy running. It is my sanctuary of peace and it’s what makes a lot of who I am.

 I am crazy about training people. Helping people succeed past what they thought they couldn’t brings me more JOY than any other job I’ve done. 

But trying to balance that with a job outside the home, attempting to half-a$$ a clean home (forgive my language. I warned this post wasn’t going to be pretty.), and pretend to be a mother… I say pretend because I feel as though that’s all I can do. I hardly see my own child. I run before he wakes so I don’t detract time from him or my husband but then there’s work. Work. Work. Work. Story of the great American Dream. 

… 

In fact I’m crying like a total weenie right complete with snot face(which doesn’t help my congestion much) now because I feel like the biggest failure in the world. I should be thrilled at all we have. But I’m overwhelmed. I realize I truly can not do it all without completely coming undone. 
If you’re this human too know you’re not alone. That’s why there’s this thing called grace. I can empathize with you dear friend. 

Deep breathe sister. Let it all out. Get some rest. And you’ll be just fine…

Thanks for reading…I’m sorry for whining but I just felt the need to let it all out. Who knows, maybe tomorrow I’ll feel like a rockstar again…

blessed and beautiful running. 

-Jess

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Thinking Out Loud: Running Can Change Instantly, What To Do When…

It’s amazing how you can go from rocking 7:30 minute miles for 10 miles then barely struggle to hold right under 8 minute miles for half the mileage and need to stop a few times just to breathe!! Yeah. That happened today. I was absolutely not in it to win it. My breathing was labored, my heart rate was rising too quickly, and my mind was exhausted. These are all signs of over-training well…or a bad case of PMS. TMI? eh. whatever. It’s my blog and I’m just that real.

rough. rough. rough.

Sometimes your body has other plans. Don’t let this discourage you. It’s important that you learn to know your body’s limits.

Even though I felt like my body was rebelling against me it really was simply reminding me to mind the little things. As a personal trainer I feel strongly about preaching this and I must practice what I preach. So I took my sweaty mess self home and re-evaluated my game plan for the day. I opted for the yoga mat.

Too much sweat.

There is a time for every thing. Including endurance work. But for now my body needs to build strength and stability. And it also is in desperate need of good hydration. I’ve been pouring out a ton of sweat lately and not making hydrating a priority. Partly due to my current pharmacy career and partly due to my excess amount of coffee…

So what do you do when: your body rebels on you on the run?
  • Go home and take care of your body. Don’t punish it and don’t beat yourself up. Sometimes I think we #WorkingClassAthletes push ourselves beyond what our bodies can honestly handle. And I don’t think we are always honest with ourselves…I found THIS short yet precise article about why exercise might not make you healthier.
  • Try yoga and mediation. Calm your mind and body. It’s time to get in touch with your inner core.
  • Work on light flow flexibility/stability exercises. I have one leg that is longer than the other so I’m constantly battling my right knee’s little twinges. By minding the little things, like hip strengthening exercises, I’ve been able to keep myself injury free for the three years I’ve been running. But lately I’ve just felt this ridiculous need to keep pushing. I’m not sure why, the only pressure I have is completely self-induced. And it is absolutely maddening. My main priority is remaining injury free so I can continue to run until I’m 99 years old. Lord willing.
  • Focus on good nutrition and hydration. I’ve been horrible thus far downing too much coffee (trying to remain superwoman) and not near enough h2o. That’s a recipe for a super woman crash.
  • Focus on other things in life that require your attention. Plan out date nights, play dates with the kid if you have those tiny human beings, clean the house (ew. just kidding), try your thumb at gardening, meet up with friends you haven’t seen in a while. Part of being “fit” is also being mentally fit. If you’re constantly running yourself into the ground you’ve lost the true meaning of what it means to be “fit”. I’m preaching to the choir here.
  • Write out future plans. Sometimes you just can not let go of training. So instead of hard core training at the moment write your future plans out. Keep your eye on the long-term goal. Mine would be to eventually qualify for Boston which entails keeping my body healthy and strong, which also means don’t overdo it when it’s not yet time to push it hard.

marathon training plan #5 in progress. I’ve been working out my chicken scratch method for a few weeks now…

How do you deal when you feel like your body is rebelling? Are you good at minding the “little things” like boring stability exercises? Or do you, like me, have this unfortunate “urge” to be on the run constantly? Are you good at staying hydrated daily?

blessed and beautiful running.

jesssig

I’m Only Human.

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When was the last time I blogged?
Oy.
I have a lot to catch up on!
Last week I only managed to squeak out 22 miles total.

I’m supposed to be marathon training.

This week doesn’t appear to be much better. Between work stress, daily activities, my messy house, a car that stinks of sweaty runner and kid, getting the kid taken care of, appointments, trying to keep up with laundry(that’s really just a big fat joke!), wedding planning…
I’m exhausted. I’m only human.

You can do many wonderful things, but you can’t do everything.

I’ve had 8 weeks of awesome training until these past two weeks. Every single running workout has been spot on or better. Until now. My last tempo run yesterday was a wreck. I was all over the place in pace and halfway through I just crashed. Couldn’t catch my breathe, legs felt like lead, and I just felt defeated. I’m chalking it up to poor hydration and high humidity. But still…worst run ever. Not every run can be amazing. Not every week can be perfect. But what matters most is that we press on. I Love To Run posted on Facebook this morning about running with purpose. And it hit me like a ton of bricks. I’ve lost my purpose somewhere in this mess we call LIFE. We all start out with great intentions and a high purpose but sometimes that fades into the background when life is yelling at you from every direction. My first purpose should be to love The Lord and glorify Him in all I do.

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Then I came across Nicole’s post at The Girl Who Ran Everywhere about running getting in the way of life or visa versa. Right now I feel like I’m treading that very fine line of balance. I’ve been giving more to life than my training the past two weeks.
I’ve been watching these kiddos be goofballs and I wouldn’t trade this for anything! Even running:

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Writing thank you cards as we receive gifts (so grateful! But I will be so glad when this is all over!!!):

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And while this is necessary and good, because I realize I’m no super athlete training for the Olympics, my running and training is still very important to me. It’s my one vice. My thing. The thing that makes me, me. And when I start to lose that I feel off balance. It may sound selfish, I’m not sure, but I need to run.
I need it.

Your turn: does life interfere with running for you? Or does running interfere with life? How do you find that balance? Please tell me there’s someone else who struggled as much as I!

blessed & beautiful running.