Warning. This ISN’T Your Typical Perky Post. 

I don’t want you all to be under any illusion thinking I am super woman and that I’m totally rocking out life every day. There are days when I feel as though I am. But much of the time I struggle. 

Today I’m staying home feeling extremely down, way under the weather (congested and not hungry. You KNOW something’s wrong when my appetite has dissapated), and fatigued. 

(Thank the Lord it’s cut back week…)

I even chose the more conservative route in marathon training knocking my 6 days of running down to 5. 

But, that’s not what I’m talking about here and now. Just a few days ago I mentioned how harmful chronic stress, whether it’s GOOD or bad, to your physical body resulting in many unfavorable symptoms… Much like what I’m experiencing today. 

I WANT to be able to “do-it-all”. However, in a previous post I know I’ve said it, 

You can do many great things, but not EVERY single great thing.

So as a personal trainer how in the world did I allow myself to get here? I mean, I practically PREACH on balance, stability, moderation, and wellness. 

I want you all to know, I NEED you all to know that I, myself, am too incredibly human and susceptible to failure and crashing and burning. Sometimes more often than I’d like to admit. 

So here’s the truth:

I wake up every morning with coffee and a Bible devotion…then this happens:

I’ve yelled at my husband over more stupid crap than I’d like to honestly disclose. 

I’ve fallen prey to the “poor me” attitude. 

I’ve cried like a starving Ethiopian baby. 

I’ve slammed too many doors out of sheer uncalled for anger. 

I’ve struggled to sleep soundly. 

I’ve had to call out of work due to illness. Twice this summer. 

Obviously I’m WAAAAY out of balance somewhere and it has me looking like an insane hypocrite. 

I enjoy running. It is my sanctuary of peace and it’s what makes a lot of who I am.

 I am crazy about training people. Helping people succeed past what they thought they couldn’t brings me more JOY than any other job I’ve done. 

But trying to balance that with a job outside the home, attempting to half-a$$ a clean home (forgive my language. I warned this post wasn’t going to be pretty.), and pretend to be a mother… I say pretend because I feel as though that’s all I can do. I hardly see my own child. I run before he wakes so I don’t detract time from him or my husband but then there’s work. Work. Work. Work. Story of the great American Dream. 

… 

In fact I’m crying like a total weenie right complete with snot face(which doesn’t help my congestion much) now because I feel like the biggest failure in the world. I should be thrilled at all we have. But I’m overwhelmed. I realize I truly can not do it all without completely coming undone. 
If you’re this human too know you’re not alone. That’s why there’s this thing called grace. I can empathize with you dear friend. 

Deep breathe sister. Let it all out. Get some rest. And you’ll be just fine…

Thanks for reading…I’m sorry for whining but I just felt the need to let it all out. Who knows, maybe tomorrow I’ll feel like a rockstar again…

blessed and beautiful running. 

-Jess

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Fitness Friday Link-UP! Mind the Little Things and Trust the Process.

Happy Friday y’all! Today I’m linking up with Jill Conyers for the Fitness Friday!

From her website:

What is Fitness Friday About?

Celebrating the one thing we all have in common. A passion and commitment for living a healthy lifestyle.

It’s about sharing progress and successes. Not perfection.

Celebrate fitness. Celebrate good health. Celebrate friends. Celebrate fun.

Link up and check out the great health and fitness blogs for inspiration, motivation, tasty recipes and stories of determination and accomplishments!

I am pretty much excited to link up with her about fitness. Y’all know that running is my most favorite thing but there’s also a few little things that I have to mind….

Fitness is a life long journey. You don’t just wake up fit one morning. It comes from the accumulation over time of every day persistence, hard work, efforts, and doing all the little things.

What do I mean by the little things?

I mean like drinking your water every day, taking time to stretch, remembering to breathe, tracking your nutrition, doing those boring stability exercises…

But by not minding the little things and rushing through the process you are more likely to become injured. The last thing you want is to be sidelined from life. So my thoughts today for you come via complements from my favorite Olympian:

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Every small step has value. Don’t forget that. You may feel as though those boring bridge and clam shell exercises are pointless but they are vital in keeping your hips strong and stable which translates into stronger running. All it takes is one loose screw to mess up a clock…or one oil leak to burn up a car…

Take care of your engine by minding all those little things and trust the process!

I type all this to you as I’m about to venture into marathon training cycle number five with high hopes to finally BQing…I’m trusting the process…I didn’t quite make it with my last marathon in Nashville but I did take 18 minutes off my PR, raised almost $700 for St.Jude Children’s Hospital, and had a blast…so I’m making progress. And that’s what we celebrate!!

Remember progress comes in all forms. Look outside the box. Continue to believe in yourself!

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Before I head out to enjoy the weekend (((which happens to include The Beer Run Relay with the BRF this Saturday! I will be losing the 2 mins and not consuming. I think I’d dehydrate and die if I chose to drink and run. It’s not safe for me yall.))) I wanted to introduce you to the new website One Mother Runner created by Stacy:

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Stacy has created an online community for real mother runners! It’s an open space with real content for us real mother runners! I particularly liked her view of the recent Women’s Running magazine cover:

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Look out for a guest post from yours truly soon!

One final thought:

Each person’s process is different. We all have our unique paces. Let us not compare to another. Your journey is YOURS alone! And it should  be celebrated no matter where you find yourself! In the same breathe we need to celebrate others’ journeys as well!! You are not too slow. They are not too fast. Rather we are just right where we need to be!

Are you good about “minding the little things”? Or do have the tendency to rush through the process? I know I’ve been way guilty! What do you think of the recent magazine cover? I love it! I say let’s celebrate every single body type!! 🙂
blessed and beautiful running.

jesssig

Weekly Happenings, a Workout, and Would You Race a Kenyan in Summer?!

Hello world! It’s Saturday morning, I’m off work, and on a day like this I’d normally run. However, I’m getting ready to pick up this kid:

  
I know he’s had a blast but I’m missing my little booger!! The house has been too quiet. Shhh. 

So what have I done with my kidless week? Um. Work. I know beyond exciting right? It’s okay to be totally, insanely jealous. 

Monday: work. Post work, upper body workout and I posted Tips on Tuesday about getting it in after a workday. #TheStruggleIsReal #WorkingClassAthlete

Tuesday: run short, work late. 

Wednesday: run short , client meeting ((just love her!!)), and all day drive to see kid at camp day!

Thursday: client session ((love her too!)), work really late. Ugh. 

Friday: morning I got in a 5 miler and lower body workout in. My knee started acting up so I figured my hips needed working! I’ve gotten too slack in keeping my hips in good shape. With leading a busy life it can be a challenge to squeeze all the little important things in. But I’ve said before, if you don’t have time for the little things you shouldn’t try the big things. Make sense?

Here’s what I did:

 

if you try the workout snap a pic and tell the world with #PinkPayneFit 🙂

 
Then I worked kinda late. And here, I may or may not have eaten an entire Kashi pizza. all. by. myself. O.o carb loading for a car ride you know??? Ha!

Saturday: we pick up kid (3 hour drive ugh) and start copious amounts of laundry. Woo! 

As you can predict my #MotivateMe goal of 40 miles will not be met..but getting in my strength workouts were important and getting the kid is WAY way WAY way more important. :-)))) plus, goals come and go. And there’s next week! 

Never, ever totally quit on a goal just because a certain deadline has passed. I know it’s discouraging. But giving up would be worse. Just revise it and try again. Keep going!! You’ll get there. But only if you choose to press on. 

So on another note, a race note finally!!! Next week I’ll be running our local Firecracker 10k hosted by Brevard Rotary. They’ve upped the ante by offering $100 prize to the closest to beat some Brevard College Kenyan runner. Yeeeeeeah I’ll be the mid packer just trying to survive the heat. Should be exciting to see who runs this kid down though! 

  
Go check out their Facebook page, give them a like, and tell them Jess sent you. Then sign up to race with me!! 

Since I realize there’s no chance for a win in my shoes (I checked out times from last year and the women are SMOKIN‘ fast) my personal goal is a nice 45:00 and to not pass out. I’d like that. My 10k PR race was set at a 49:51 years ago…I think… Been a while since I’ve raced a 10k. I ran the firecracker last year but ran it slow because I was terrified of passing out…if you’ve read my blog long enough you understand. But this year I feel ready. I’ve been pushing it outside, getting acclimated to heat/humidity. I think I maaaaaay have a 10k PR in me…

If you’re a parent what do you do when your kid is off to camp? Any exciting happenings in your world? Any fun races? I need to live vicariously through you! Ha! Do you race well in heat? Would you race a Kenyan?!

blessed and beautiful running. 

Jess

#MotivateMe Monday Fat Legs, 31 miles, and Summer Goals 

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The photo above is not me. Obviously. 

What prompted this post was a recent conversation held between a fellow professional peer and I. We were discussing body image and they told me I had “big” legs. 

Really?! The last thing you want to tell a woman is that she is big. Anywhere. Maybe they meant for it to be a compliment as I am a marathoner and we typically have muscular legs. I prefer the term thoroughbred horse powered. But I couldn’t help but look down and suddenly see my lower limbs as fat stubs, I’m short. Not long and lean. It’s amazing how others’ words can affect you…if you give them meaning. 

  
We women can be terribly harsh with ourselves.  Some people have this idea that we runners are all 8 feet tall, 0.05% body fat, and zero boobs. 

Well, they got the boob thing right with me. TMI? Sorry. It’s still kinda a personal runners blog. Chuckle at it. It’s okay. 

But runners run in ALL sizes and body types. 

I’m short and kinda squatty. But it’s cool cause I’m closer to the ground. So less ways to fall when I trip. HA. 

  
**#MotivateMe Monday is a weekly link-up hosted by Fitness Cheerleader and Running Rachel!! Join their link-up to help encourage each other to stay accountable with our goals.**

 But aside from that short ramble last week’s #MotivateMe didn’t quite end well. Life was just….busy. I worked overtime, training clients, the kid had camp to get ready and off to, I have a husband I should acknowledge one in a while lol… You know the drill. I made it 31 miles. Not quite 40. But 31 is still more than 0!!! And instead of solely focusing on mileage I have other things to enjoy…

I wanted to check in with summer. It’sofficially  heat wave season!!  Working that golden runners tan. 

Summer Goals

  1. Sub -45 10k July 4th without passing out.  
  2. Hit 40+ miles weekly, end of June. This still needs to happen to prep for marathon training. 
  3. Enjoy Running as a gift. 
  4. Go on a long 10+ mile trail run. 
  5. Go to the pool. Last year we had access and never went. Really?!?! Yeah, that’s gotta change. 
  6. Read a book. A whole. Entire. Book. Maybe. Who has time to read? But it sounds like such a good goal. 
  7. Get together with my girlfriends! Haven’t done this since the wedding. 
  8. See my new clients reach their goals!
  9. Blog more than once a week. Ha. Admirable goal. 
  10. Just practice joy on a daily basis. 

Weekly Workout line-up 

Monday: 30 minutes XT + upper body strength routine. 

Tuesday: easy 6 with 4 x 800s

Wednesday: easy 5 + yoga

Thursday: 8 tempo 

Friday: easy 5 + 30 mins XT + lower body stability workout. 

Saturday: easy 4 or rest

Sunday: 12 long slow miles 

Total miles: 40 let’s try again… 

How do you see yourself in the mirror? Do you think you have the atypical “runner’s body”? How are your summer goals going if you’ve made any? How does summer affect your overall mileage? Have you ever had someone comment on your body size or shape?

blessed and beautiful running.

Sleepy Sunday, Self-Doubt, and Why I’m Not Racing…Right Now

be strong in the Lord. more race days will come! trash self-doubt and trust that He has made you strong and beautiful!

I absolutely revel in race day mornings. The excitement, free bananas, cool tees, the people, nerves, energy, the unknown, the run. And yesterday morning in my quiet little town they hosted the White Squirrel 5/10k hosted by Brevard Rotary which I have run a time or two in the past and have enjoyed the races. But I’m not racing this year. Here’s why:

  • as many of you know racing tends to get expensive. So I’ve been very picky and choosey about which distances and which races I’ll be running.
  • There’s that and I’ve run a marathon and a fast 5k all within four weeks of each other.
  •  I’m trying my hardest to focus on the easier runs and strength work.
  • Plus, most elite runners race only a handful of events anyway. There’s a very good reason for that. If you want to give your best at your goal race you must give your body the rest it needs. Not just a day or two either. 
  • I want to be at my peak come marathon day in November. And that means ample rest to be ready to push hard when the time is right. 
  • Racing too often, too much, too long stresses your body and increases risk of injury. 

So what did I do with my Saturday? Well, at 8:00 I met with Jenna at Jenna Leigh Photography ((She is an incredibly talented photographer and I am sooooo freaking lucky to know her. If you’re in Western NC I can not highly recommend her more!!)) for a quick head shot for my Personal Trainer biz, which is a work in progress; check it out HERE so far to see where I am going with it. It’s definitely a work in progress!  We had fun this morning with some quick shots and overdue girl, fitness, mommy chat. Need more of that….

jenna aka best photographer ever

Then right after that I took off on a run to wallow in self pity about not racing clear my mind of a few stresses. I’d be a liar if I told you I totally didn’t run past the race event and whine in jealousy inside my mind a weeeee bit.  I’ve not been feeling my strongest lately mentally. I believe we A-type go getters tend to put too much pressure to be perfect in everything. I’ve come a long ways in growing and becoming okay with relaxing that idea some. But sometimes, every once in a while life just gets to me. Maybe it’s been my current pharmacy job getting me down, or the fact that I’m tirelessly trying to create a personal training biz that seems to be taking too long to lift off, or maybe it’s too much self-doubt. You gotta tell that ish to shut it up. Because ain’t no body got time for that mess. You are stronger than you think. And The Good Lord is even stronger.  Any good biz owner I’m sure will tell you it takes an insane amount of initial ground breaking work and lots of dedicated T-I-M-E to really get the ball rolling. Especially if you’re currently working a full-time job outside of the home. But in the long run it will all be worth it. The long runs always are. 

i don’t always wear makeup when i run but when i do i take a selfie. lol i am no running diva i swear but post photo shoot i wanted to run!


As a fitness professional I am not exempt from feelings of insecurities and today proved that. When trying to pose for the camera I kept hearing those nasty little self-doubt bugs creep in trying to tell me lies. Like your teeth are crooked. Don’t smile. You’re not fit enough yet. Blah blah blah

You know what to tell those bugs: liar liar pants on fire! I may be a work in progress but I am strong and I am beautiful still!!!!

And on a more personal life note the husband and I are celebrating two years of togetherness this weekend! We went on our first date, a hike and ice-cream, two years ago during Memorial Day Weekend. This weekend we celebrated with cruising the town festival eating ridiculous amounts of tasty oh-so-bad-for-you food!

  
So that’s my weekend in a nutshell. I press on. Follow your heart. Never give up and tell those nasty bugs to shut it up! 

I’m working all Sunday then group run Sunday eve! 

What’s on your plate this weekend? How often do you race?

jesssig