In my continued efforts to analyze my negative thoughts on Saturday, I may have had a “lightbulb” moment after reading the quote above…
I’m grateful for my Believe journal written and organized by two amazing Olympians. The quote above came on the next pages week after my race. Perfect timing.
What is it exactly that I have to prove? Need to prove? Why am I seeking approval and from whom am I?
Then, I really got to thinking. Seems like throughout my life I was always seeking that stamp of approval from the world, but felt I always fell short. I was that alllllllmost smart kid. All A’s in school except my reports were tainted with a B. Almost the best.
Growing up I felt I wasn’t good enough in my family circumstances. I won’t go into gorey detail but anytime you have a split family I think your self esteem takes a big hit. Maybe if I was good enough my parents would work out… I’m no physiologist but I’ve read enough info to see this is true.
I could go on and on about all the reasons why I or someone else would feel they have something to prove, but that’s not my ultimate point here.
My point is simply this, you have nothing you need to prove my dear.
It hit me like a ton of bricks. My racing isn’t a proving point. It’s my stress relief and my personal playground. And I need to remember this.
You are perfectly beautiful, smart, fun, and wonderful the way you are.
Life is meant to be enjoyed! Yes, enjoy a dose of healthy competition but STOP the negative thoughts when you don’t “win”. Your time will come. And until then keep focus on your strengths and #PressOnPowerfully.
You are a gift to this world. Believe it.
Do you feel as though you need to prove yourself to the world? What holds you back from enjoying the moment? What is your ‘playground’?
blessed and beautiful running.