Thank you Amanda at Running With Spoons for hosting Thursdays are for Thinking Out Loud! It’s the perfect link-up to get all my crazy thoughts off my mind.
I’m going to be honest. I struggle. I really, really struggle.
Maybe it was the popcorn and chocolate last night.
Maybe I need new shoes.
Maybe it was the HIGH pollen count in the air.
I don’t get it. It was a sunny, cool, and glorious day here in the mountains of western NC but my run felt HARD. I felt heavy, slow, and out of breathe the entire time. And I kept finding myself angry with my body.
Why is this so hard? I am so blessed to be out here! Did I not pray right this morning? Is it because I got too frustrated with the dog?
Maybe I am dehydrated.
Maybe I am tired.
Maybe I am over thinking the whole situation.
Part of my game plan this week was to hit the weights more and focus on over all strength and total body conditioning. And in my running journal this week I even promised myself to not beat myself up for not running as much. But I fear losing all that endurance I built over the past four months…BUT I also know a.) I will not lose a substantial amount of endurance and b.) how important it is to remain strong and healthy. My body can not just keep pounding the pavement without a serious break here and there. It’s only been three weeks post marathon and I’m already beating myself up for not running 30+ mileage weeks. Dummy. Get over it.
I know that the body needs rest and a restorative period. Especially if I’m going to ask it to marathon train all over a gain in two months. I keep trying to remind myself that I will have another four brutal months to beat myself up.