As it already is in my normal life I’m thinking out loud today, only this time while linking up with Amanda at Running With Spoons. My poor husband can testify that I tend to ramble on and on and on….generally about all the minuet details of my ever so intriguing life.
So in an effort to stay married I’m going to blog all about the current ramblings in my brain, with you. You’re welcome.
First order of business, as I woof down left over spaghetti in an effort to multi-task, is that I am struggling to keep an order in business! If you’ve been following me for a while now then you may be aware that I have become a certified personal trainer through NASM. woo! While this is exciting I am still intensely frustrated. I’m currently stuck working full-time in the pharmacy so I feel as though I can not devote the much needed time to build a successful career. I know it can be done, but man, it’s such a slow process. There’s just so much to think about. Especially since I’m the primary health insurance provider I can’t exactly just quit my current job. And there’s still that thing called RENT that has to be paid. Quitting my current full-time, well paying job would be completely irresponsible. But there’s nothing I desire more than to make a living, while LIVING. Does this make any sense? If not. Oh well. That’s what this post if for. Thinking out loud and rambling. Maybe after all this typing and posting something will come to my brain that makes sense of out all of this.
So. In an effort to segway out of pharmacy I have been tirelessly been working on a resume.
It goes something like this:
Pharmacy for 10 years.
Not too impressive. In creating this resume thing I’ve been feeling beyond inadequate. Yes, I do have that lovely cert now. Yes, I do have a strong solid employment with a company.
But I have ZERO college degrees. And this has always been a source of feelings of failure for me. I tried going back once back when the kid was younger but I felt as though I wan’t being a parent. And I think that hurt me more than not having that degree.
Unfortunately, companies don’t really care too much about how you feel as a parent. They care about experience, education, and skills.
Oh I got skills. I got mad running, marathoner, and motivational skills.
But is that enough for employment? Probably not.
Yes, so let me tell you more. Most days in the pharmacy are high stress, fast paced, and generally crazy with the crazy pubic. Getting yelled at for things out of my control. Watch people medicate while they buy their Twinkies and cigarettes.
I mean c’mon y’all! A bag of apples will last longer than those Twinkies, help regulate your blood sugar, and boost your energy! This is probably the most frustrating aspect of my current career. Watching people throw their lives out the window with band-aid solutions and temporary highs that ultimately destroy their long-term health.
In being a personal trainer I would have that career that would get people moving into their full potentials in life.
So my resume sucks. Whatever. I filled it out. Tried in vain to make it look pretty and sent it in anyway to any and every gym there is. There’s just too much risk in going into business myself for our family. We are simply not in that position. But if I could get hired on full-time in a gym maybe that’d be my meal ticket in the mean time.
In other news…I had an awesome sunny run yesterday and a great track workout this morning. It was a super short and simple track workout. Just enough to get my legs popping for the 5k this weekend while keeping ’em fresh.
Thank you Amanda for hosting this Thinking out loud Thursday so I could have a moment to vent.
And now, I’m off to the pharmacy. Prayers welcomed. 😉
blessed and beautiful running.